LOL this comment is great because it’s such a thorough and accurate analysis of myself at this age. Yes! Absolutely, I pretended to be shy but I was a shallow dick. What girl isn’t in their early twenties? I at least was a manipulative, vapid little asshole. Still am, I’m just better at being smooth.

Anyway, I’d rather not lie to you, love. I'm sorry if it seems demeaning. I am. I was young. We’re idiots at this age. If someone says they weren’t I’m betting they’re full of it.

Also, I’m not trying to be a hero, I'm trying to be honest. This story isn’t marked fiction, and the truth isn’t always roses.

These were the thoughts running through my head because I was a chubby, competitive 21- year-old surrounded by beautiful women who hated me before I said, “hello.” That’s how it seemed to a girl this age. Of course, it’s not the right way to act now, not at all, but I’m 32 and people change.

The funny thing is I was in awe of them, especially Mila. She taught me to be strong. We were all just catty because that's what a lot of young girls do, you can understand that.

It’s interesting you mention the “Fifty Shades” tilt. I know you meant it as a slight, but I’m laughing because Craig would’ve loved that. We always talked about the stupidest shit — and that shit is stupid. Thanks for the giggle.