Herb I understand completely! My "inner Karen" talks to normal me and vise versa hahha and sometimes I Really don't want to smoke. Sometimes, I'll reach for it and be like...you don't need it. Which is a nice feeling. My dad only smokes at night too. I hope as I find my footing more and more and learn to talk down Karen i smoke less, but if not, it's okay haha.

It's interesting how our subconscious emerges when that layer of white noise is removed, isn't it! Thank you for a thought provoking discussion and reading!